We followed the great Euprhates river, moving slowly on account of the livestock and the children; resting when possible in the cool shade cast by embankments. We reached Uruk on the second day. Uruk; our great sister city and the cradle of civilization.
Wednesday, May 24, 2023
Chapter 7: Milcah
Chapter 6: Amathlai
A marriage of Abram and Iscah seems fitting in its own tragic way. Abram, who criticized the sacred fertility rites at every opportunity, marrying the beautiful young woman for whom they never produced a cure. Abram, who never seems anxious to take for himself, claiming the one who has nothing to give.
I saw Haran burned before my eyes, a terrifying sacrifice to Nusku. And in another way I watch Abram’s life offered up before my eyes as well. For what is it but the destruction of his life, for Abram to marry a barren woman? And what is manhood but the exchange of the fertile mirage of potential for the merciless rigidity of fate?
This is what mothers do. We care for our sons, and protect them from harm, and then we offer them up to a world that sooner or later will char them into a pile of lifeless bones. We place them on the altar and allow the gods to have their way. We place them in a little basket on the rushing river and send them on their way.
Our sons are no different from ourselves. We all trade life for death, and descend into Ersetu where our only food is clay, our only drink is dust, and there is no judgment and no hope, but only shadows.
It is the secret of happiness to dance amid the flames, to laugh despite the searing heat, to lie under the stars and feel one’s heart ache and utter no complaints.
My sons are dying. Even so, Nanna, you are bright.
Monday, May 22, 2023
Chapter 5: Nahor
Setting: Genesis 11:29-30 Extra-biblical Sources:
Bereishit Rabbah 39:1
Commentary from Vilna edition of Midrash Rabbah
We sat on an outcropping overlooking the great Euphrates near a stand of reeds. It was not a dark night, for Nanna and the other gods shone brightly in the sky, but we could clearly see the distant flickering light that was Nusku’s fire consuming Terah’s compound.
I was not in a right state of mind and bitterly I said to my little brother, “Abram, great ‘friend’ of Enki - or ‘El’ as you call him - tell your friend to command Enbilulu to divert some of these powerful waters and extinguish the fire that burns up our homes and our lives.”
He sat in silence.
I continued: “Enki is a king among the Annunaki, Abram, but he is not a friend of man, and whatever authority he has delegated to the others he no longer retains for himself. The world is not a place of harmony. Life is struggle. Gods and men are at war. It is cowardice to deny it.”
Still he said nothing.
“Why does your ‘El,’ god of water and friend of man, stand by and watch with us as the world burns.”
Abram looked at me with a soft and gentle gaze. “Nahor, Terah’s house is a magnificent house. It is a palace. Even a birah. It is worth defending. It is worth protecting. It is a shelter for man and beast, a paradise in a chaotic cosmos.”
He paused and I wondered if I was somehow meant to find some kind of reassurance in his declaration that what was burning was indeed precious.
Softly, he went on.
“For all of its splendor, we have left our birah to hide here in the dark. How can you ask why El has abandoned our birah, when it is plain to see that we have abandoned it, too. How can you ask why El does not defend our world, when we do not defend it ourselves?”
“My standards for the Annunaki are higher than my standards for men.” I replied.
“Are they?” Abram asked. “Do your Annunaki not engage in every form of pettiness and treachery and lust that man engages in, only more so? Yet I commend you in your instinct to look for a higher god. One unlike man. One holy. I seek Him, too.”
I stared at him there in the darkness, unwilling to seriously entertain the thought that I somehow want gods at once more wicked and more holy than I.
“Where is he? This ‘holy one’ you seek, Abram? Where is he?”
“I fear He has abandoned His birah. Perhaps we will find him out here in the desert.”
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That night we set a watch with Abdhulraman and his son Eliezer taking shifts overseeing the guard.
I was not sleeping when Abram approached my makeshift tent in the middle of the night and whispered quietly to me. I sat up and crossed my legs and took a moment to collect myself, and at first his words made no sense to me.
“Milcah or Iscah?”
He stared at me with anticipation and then continued: “If you should choose Milcah I would take Iscah, but if you should choose Iscah I would take Milcah, for I love them both as my own sisters.”
As my mind cleared and his meaning gradually became clear to me I stared at him in disbelief. “Abram, Iscah is barren, you know that as well as I do, and Milcah will have no trouble finding a suitor in any town in Chaldea. Do you really suggest what you seem to be suggesting?”
“It could be years before we are established in another town, and Milcah and Iscah are already at the age of childbearing. They need support, and stability, now. Haran’s name must be preserved. We are his closest kin.”
“Abram, Iscah is barren! And a thousand prayers to Inanna have not changed that. Your guilt over what happened to Haran drives you to act hastily in this matter,” I replied.
At that, he sat in silence beside my bed for so long that I thought I might have convinced him to lay aside the matter for another day. Then he spoke once more.
“I will wed Iscah when the days of mourning for Haran are ended. Who knows? The old women may be wrong. She may yet be able to conceive. And if not, would that change the fact that Iscah needs a redeemer?”
I knew that what Abram spoke would come to pass. He would marry Iscah and I Milcah, and so we would redeem our older brother’s daughters.
It was always this way with Abram. He would run, not walk, to help the most despised and unfortunate among us.
“Very well,” I said, and rolled over as if there were any chance of sleep.
Friday, May 19, 2023
Chapter 4: Beltis
Midrash Ha-Gadol, Genesis 12:1
All of the priestly families have respected the house of Terah. What good fortune for Amathlai, it was thought, that she should be married to this great man.
It is the very beginning of wisdom to understand that balance pervades the cosmos, else it could not be sustained at all.
Truthfully, the more knowledgeable students of religion would admit when pressed that this same idea was common in other parts of the world, but in general it was frowned upon to give Abram more reason to pursue his destabilizing ideas.
Wednesday, May 17, 2023
Chapter 3: Terah
Abram’s eyes were strangely calm and his voice strong, “If I perish, I perish, but I will worship the great unseen El and not the earthly elements of fire and water.”
He turned to reason with Abram, “Is there not room in heaven and earth for both El and Nusku? Put aside this meaningless conflict and enjoy a night of revelry!”
“My brother is no demon, he is the most upright man I know.” Haran declared. And with that, in one swift motion, Nimrod lifted Haran above his head and flung him into the flames.
Monday, May 15, 2023
Chapter 2: Nahor
I was expected among the council that afternoon and I rehearsed with Abram over and over the seriousness of the situation. Of the steps we must take to atone for our carelessness and the remorse we must show when discussing this with Terah.
Friday, May 12, 2023
Chapter 1: Serug
I was born one hundred and sixty years after the flood, and my firstborn Nahor was born thirty years after I.
Man is a vulnerable thing and the cosmos is a tempestuous place.
I mourned my firstborn, who died when he had lived but one hundred and forty-eight years. The Nephilim and the Gibborim, those men of old and of great renown in the days before the flood, lived more than nine hundred years. But the Annunaki became angry with us, and flooded the earth to drown us, and when Utnapishtim outwitted them with his great ark, in their anger they declared that their breath would depart from us. The strength of man alone, without the breath of the Annunaki in him, does not endure on the earth so long.
Though I suspect that the great Enki was actually allied with Utnapishtim in his actions and is even now our heavenly ally. It may be that without this special friendship we could not hope to live even three or four hundred years. For without the breath of a god in our nostrils, how could we live at all?
I had lived but one hundred and seventy-eight years, and was still young and strong, when my son went down to the dark waters of the underworld in my presence. It is an unnatural despair to lose one’s child. The grief of it is so great that only on my strongest days does my soul in its resilience catch some small glimpse of that vast, vast world which is the uncrossable desert of my pain. To be rid of that pain is impossible; to feel even some small part of it is the labor of my life.
And what of my father, Reu, who lived to bury the son of his son? My father’s father, Peleg died not one year before my son Nahor. As the lifespan of man shortens it seems that all the glory of the ancient world dissipates. Indeed, things just are not as they used to be.
Concerning my deceased son Nahor: as his name, so was he; a man whose life burned hot and short. And in the strength of his youth, when he had lived but twenty and nine years, Nahor begat Terah.
Terah, the son of my son, is an unusual man. He lives his life not with the hot intensity of his father but in a sort of calm and daydreaming contentment. Yet his calm demeanor by no means indicates a lack of religious devotion, for even from his youth Terah was especially religious in his worship of the Annunaki.
This was my hope even before Nahor named him for the moon, who is our great god Nanna. And given the atmosphere of Ur, and the upbringing he received from myself and his other living fathers, his religious devotion was to be expected.
Young Terah watched in amazement as the great Ziggurat of Nanna rose before his eyes at the zealous direction of King Ur-Nammu. When it was complete, it was 480 cubits in circumference and almost as tall as it was wide. The pride of Chaldea and a place practically crawling with the melam of the Annunaki.
The magnificence of the Ziggurat seemed to the inhabitants of Ur to be an obvious sign of the favor of the Annunaki upon the town, and this inspired great devotion in young Terah. On the other hand, its ambitious size and flamboyant multicolored design inspired in myself not celebration but a certain dread, lest the great structure be interpreted by the Annunaki not as an act of worship but as an act of human pride. And this dread inspired me to instill in Terah a devotion even greater still.
With great zeal I sought to avoid offending the Annunaki, and this zeal of mine resulted in our family being rather well regarded by the priests and priestesses of Nanna.
None heeded my religious warnings with as much purity and dedication as did young Terah. His was a faith pure, childlike, and unquestioning. And as he grew into the strength of manhood his faith did not waver. It was with great pleasure that I learned that Nahor had arranged for Amathlai, one of the leading priestesses and a daughter of Cornebo, to become Terah’s first wife.
In time it became Terah's occupation to oversee the shop where Cornebo sold idols of the Seven: Nanna, Enlil, Enki, An, Ninhursag, Utu, and Inanna.
Yet for all his devotion, what great trouble would eventually beset Terah! This man so religious would find in religion such turmoil.
Man is a vulnerable thing and the cosmos is a tempestuous place.
May the Annunaki look down and have pity on us.